irony

i have some of the most bastardly friends. who never fail to hurt me.

and yet at the end of the day, i go one full circle, and end up back with some of the best friends i could ever ask for.

thank you for everything.


i've been occupying myself with everything. to forget the emptiness. to take away the numbness. but its all coming back to me now.

how can something so non-existent hurt so much.

happy days are here (:

i'm loving these few days. despite the tense situations, stressed shite, and stuff. dance night 06 amarante's gonna be the best 2 nights of this yr (: and i'm really happy i get to share with all my dearest dancers.

much love to angie, krist and cat for everything.

much love to goldfish and viola for being so sweet and thoughtful and getting me hei bai pei today knowing we wouldn't be able to have dinner cos of zaki. haha

you wouldn't believe this but i actually miss zaki. i think he's hilarious and he rocks as a choreographer. i hope he can come back from reservice (:

9 days to dance night. i don't want it to ever come 0_o cos i never want this to end ):

i've dreamed of a night like this for as long as i have been dancing.

hello there, the angel from my nightmare. i miss you so much.

: i have nothing :: catherine mcphee :
i'm watching american idol. hehe.

madness

i miss just staring out into the emptiness. i have no time for that anymore.

in the comp lab. econs tut (: mel, suefaye and i are going crazyyyy. hahaha. mel's covered in purple, green and pink streaks. spokesbaby. smirks. its times like these that make the school day a little easier to get through.

publicity stunt for dance night was rather -.- but still COME FOR DANCE NIGHT (: its gonna be the best night of my life. hehee.

i'm so sleeeepyyyy. at least there's bio lect later to sleep (:

i've been loving these few days. dancing + rain. my 2 favourite things.

bring me dancing.

take the lead left me smiling to myself for quite a while. haha. i don't know how to explain it to ppl who don't love dancing. its just such a wonderful and great feeling to dance. to lose yourself to the movements, rhythms and beats. i never want to stop dancing. i never want to stop feeling.

i wish i knew how to teach the latin ppl to dance like that.




gym night's over (: was overwhelmed by the sweetest friends who came and brought me so many flowers. was especially surprised by steffish. :D loveeeee you so much for coming. i still rmb how much i had to beg rach, ming and cass to go for gym night in sec4. so i didn't bother asking them. but you just appeared! heee. i love love love you. (:

also love my darling juniors to bits. who put in so much effort practising for e dance despite comp being next week. haha. it felt just like the old days. (: juee, wenxin, hui hui, ziying, mel and i. missing wan chee :p credit due to e other four boys too. haha. jem, nah, matt and david.

its so easy to hate someone. and he's pushing me further and further to that point where i will want nothing to do with him anymore. ever again.

3 weeks to dance night. i'm screwed -.- but i don't want it to end.

kill me

weds was one hell of an eventful day. waterpolo match. a meeting from the distance. jeremy and junwee thingy. dance night preview. gym night pract.

emotions/feelings involved. excitement, disappointment, anticipation, hurt, joy beyond any words, longing, stressed, happy, confused, afraid, cranky, angry, fed up, worried. and a lot of other nonsense. sighs.

it scares me how happy a person can make me feel.

i feel like everyone other than those in dance are strangers. just passing me by now.

sometimes it gets so lonely you just want to die. there's this emptiness in you. that nothing can fill. this coldness no one can take away. except that certain person.

i need a shoulder to cry on.

hello there. the angel from my nightmare.

gym night's tmr. the only redeemable thing is i get to spend some time with my juniors (:

cranky.

[edit] something else i needed to add. i miss my kayli jie so much ): there's so much i want to tell you and also to get advice from you :p you were always so good with my nonsense shite. i wish you were back in spore. and not so farrrr away. but i'm happy for you dear (: cos you're totally rocking as a cheerleader there. hahaha. and i miss my darling gym juniors too. i wish everything could go back to the sec 3 days. when kayli was around, and i was beginning to like my juniors (haha) and we were all training under teo. that's was where we belonged. our team. [/edit]

i've been in a fantastically cranky mood lately. all e latin dancers can tell you that. maybe its cos i'm too tired to cover up the hurt anymore. too tired to pretend everything's alright and to just suck it up.

its such a joy to be around dancers. (: with ppl who understand all the nonsense shite we're going through. and not scoff and say 'its only dance'.

happy birthday dennet (: from an enemy to a dear friend. how far we've come. i love you dear.

happy birthday leslie (:

i'm looking for a place or someone to seek solace.

sometimes memories are all you need. but there are times. where even the warmest memories are not enough to chase away the cold.

hugs are the most wonderful things in e world (excuse my little spot of sunshine -.- ) i'm a sucker for hugs.

sent love: alicia (sweetest girl alive), cat, dee, angie, krist, sarah s, jeremy mark and jem tan.

r project rocked btw (: thanks to my sexy model. hee.




toa payoh performance. a very loooong time ago.

:: yue liang dai biao wo de xin : david tao ::
influenced by the dance boys obsession with this version of e song.

it pours

whoopee. its raining season. and i'm one happy girl (:

movie medley today was rather weird. quite amusing dancing with jem. but its like uncomfortable how some ppl don't understand our friendship and get offended by how we insult and abuse each other -.- we're a sadistic bunch.

<3 to waterbottle.

waves to interdependent (: miss you my dear friend.

its been so long. yet i still can't help think about the fairylights. the walks in the cool mornings. the bus ride. les miserables. chronicles of narnia. forbidden memories of a love long lost. smirks. how apt.

hate.

its funny how a simple sentence can bring me to tears.

i miss 408 so much. i miss the ppl who will protect me no matter what. i miss the attitudes of 408. how doing well does not definitely equal intelligence, and how not mugging does not mean u're stupid. i'm sick and tired of all that nonsense. together with all e crap blinkie gives me. its not funny anymore. its just plain hurtful.

i'm being pushed to the point of almost breaking. but i refuse to give in. to give up.



i miss the fairylights. do you miss the stars?

i miss the comfort i could only find in you. the warmth and safety.

i'm missing out on so much.

i don't get the attitudes of some ppl. and how some ppl can be so outright cruel when they know they're hurting ppl. i hate them all.

ROARS. i just deleted my entry by mistake -.- i hate this. anyway, the loooongg, tiring and very bad week is over. sighs.

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latin latin latin. BADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. ):

be supportive or piss off. i'm sick and tired and have no energy to bother abt other nonsense anymore.

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the fashion show for rproject's totally cool (: dione and jerrine look bloody sexy and it was loads of fun catching up today. miss you babes.